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Story #9 – Heaven

Posted: July 11, 2018 in Uncategorized

How does one envision heaven?

When I was a little kid, I was told that there are rivers running through the heavens. I saw them in my mind, one flowing with pearl white milk, the other with golden honey. The waters were so calm that I could swim and glide and have the bestest fun of my life (after death, that is).

I remember seeing myself in front of a huge screen hanging in the air. I could ask about anything and God would answer my every question and show me video footages to explain them. I asked many questions about earth and the universe. How were things formed? Were dinosaurs real? Were there kind dinosaurs that I could pet and play with? What was the first language spoken by humans? The first word? Every question had its own answer and I kept on asking.

I played hard in heaven. I climbed trees, jumped onto a bed of dried leaves and I ran and ran and ran endlessly and tirelessly…

When I revisited my kiddish idea of heaven as an adult, I realised that it was just me and God all along but I didn’t remember feeling lonely or sombre. If truth be told, I do miss those moments and that special bond with God that I developed and cherished as a child.


Story #8 – Escape

Posted: May 29, 2018 in Uncategorized

Have you ever thought of escaping your life for a while and living as someone else, unknown to anyone, away from everything?

No, I don’t mean a vacation in Bora-bora Island or in the freezing Arctic.

Escaping doesn’t resolve anything, does it? It’s merely running away far enough before bumping into another obstacle. Soon, you’ll grow tired of running.

When you think of it again, you only have ONE life on this earth and if you keep feeling the need to escape, there must be something fundamentally wrong with the choices you made, be it your job, friends or surrounding.

With this one life and limited time that we have, let’s do something meaningful, if not to others, just to ourselves. A reminder to myself that life can be better depending on how I react to it. Allahu ‘alam.

– 13 Ramadhan 1439

A variable

Posted: August 1, 2017 in Uncategorized

According to you, I am a variable. When you’re happy, we could talk for hours about anything under the sun. When you’re angry, I transform into a punching bag. When you’re thrilled, we’d have great idea duels. When you’re upset, I’m back at being your punching bag. When I tease you, you’d be embarrassed and it quickly escalates into a grumpy mode and out comes the punching bag yet again. According to you, I’m merely a silly variable. A simpleton that isn’t capable of understanding your complexities. My codings are designed to suit you but my feelings contribute nothing to your programming. And here I stand still playing dumb, pretending numb. 

It’s been on my mind for some time. And I’ve tried talking her into writing something that would be like a series of correspondence between the two of us. Immortalizing memories through our stories and hoping to help her go through this phase. But I guess, now, it’s up to me to hopefully write a story a day, for me, for her, for her baby, perhaps for me, mostly.


She dropped the C bomb on us casually. After hiding it for two years, she finally told us. We were celebrating a good friend’s birthday. It was at a somewhat posh restaurant. We were eating and she was having a hard time to decide what to eat that won’t make her feel bad. And she was avoiding meat and eggs. So I asked. Then, the truth came.

It felt awkward celebrating life and being told the possibility of losing a person dear to you.

Life changed, for me, at least.

The gift of giving

Posted: April 2, 2016 in muse, Uncategorized
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It is a gift to be able to recognise the countless blessings that we have in this life.

It is a gift to be able to give back. The heart will become lighter and clearer by the act of giving, insha Allah.


Up to you

Posted: March 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

Probably when asked a question of preference by you, this is my favourite answer.

Not because I do not have an opinion nor any liking. It’s just that I enjoy giving the privilege to you to choose and I’ll be happy with whatever your choice is. Regardless of the sometimes mishap of ending up with so-so food or movies. And man, don’t I just like to put my critique hat on when such thing happens. But in all honesty, I do not regret saying, “up to you.”

If only you’d understand.

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Posted: November 13, 2013 in Uncategorized

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