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A variable

Posted: August 1, 2017 in Uncategorized

According to you, I am a variable. When you’re happy, we could talk for hours about anything under the sun. When you’re angry, I transform into a punching bag. When you’re thrilled, we’d have great idea duels. When you’re upset, I’m back at being your punching bag. When I tease you, you’d be embarrassed and it quickly escalates into a grumpy mode and out comes the punching bag yet again. According to you, I’m merely a silly variable. A simpleton that isn’t capable of understanding your complexities. My codings are designed to suit you but my feelings contribute nothing to your programming. And here I stand still playing dumb, pretending numb. 


It’s been on my mind for some time. And I’ve tried talking her into writing something that would be like a series of correspondence between the two of us. Immortalizing memories through our stories and hoping to help her go through this phase. But I guess, now, it’s up to me to hopefully write a story a day, for me, for her, for her baby, perhaps for me, mostly.


She dropped the C bomb on us casually. After hiding it for two years, she finally told us. We were celebrating a good friend’s birthday. It was at a somewhat posh restaurant. We were eating and she was having a hard time to decide what to eat that won’t make her feel bad. And she was avoiding meat and eggs. So I asked. Then, the truth came.

It felt awkward celebrating life and being told the possibility of losing a person dear to you.

Life changed, for me, at least.

The gift of giving

Posted: April 2, 2016 in muse, Uncategorized
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It is a gift to be able to recognise the countless blessings that we have in this life.

It is a gift to be able to give back. The heart will become lighter and clearer by the act of giving, insha Allah.


Up to you

Posted: March 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

Probably when asked a question of preference by you, this is my favourite answer.

Not because I do not have an opinion nor any liking. It’s just that I enjoy giving the privilege to you to choose and I’ll be happy with whatever your choice is. Regardless of the sometimes mishap of ending up with so-so food or movies. And man, don’t I just like to put my critique hat on when such thing happens. But in all honesty, I do not regret saying, “up to you.”

If only you’d understand.

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Posted: November 13, 2013 in Uncategorized

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Everything that happens in this life serves a purpose or many.

I’m not going to say that I’m alright with what happened earlier on. I’m still blaming myself for it, but I truly understand that I can’t revoke what I’ve said and done. I can only ask for forgiveness from those who’re involved. And most importantly seek forgiveness from Allah for letting my anger and emotions took over me.

I know things are not going to be the same again but I do hope it will only make me better.

what will you do

Posted: September 21, 2013 in Uncategorized

When love decides that friendship is the only relationship that you should pursue..

When loving a friend is considered a ‘crime’ hence friend asks for a ‘time-out’?

And they say I’m weird when they decide all the rules of the game that should govern others’ life and they can do whatever they want because..they just can?

What will you do?

I choose to sleep through the madness until one of us come to our senses or.. Or some kind of miracle decides to appear.